Friday, June 30, 2006

Just Let Me Say....

A blog is a form of personal expression to the public. Anything I say in MY BLOG is up to me. While I'm not a bitch and am fully aware of the readers, (though most times they freeload and never comment)...I will never let anyone or any situation stop me from speaking my mind. Yes, I censor myself- I'd never completely put someone on blast and I'd never "defame" anyone's character, unless it were true you understand...
So about my roomates. They're not bad people really they're not. They just weren't made for me and that's completely okay because as we all know the world never has and never will revolve around me. However, being that this is my blog ...sometimes when it gets real bad I will speak on it.
Just for the record...the girl mentioned first in my blog...she's an alright person. She's not dirty though sometimes I wish I didn't what curl pattern her hair has since it's normally spotted all over the bathroom. But she just moved out so everything that happened is in the past and I don't wish any bad for her. She's not a bad person just not the best roomate for me.
The second situation...when I thought the girl commited suicide. That's a true story, but honestly I haven't seen the girl since. She's never here and I hardly see signs of her living besides that night she has never been an issue and so besides that incident I've never mentioned her.
Okay, just thought I should share that with all of my loyal readers. Continue on, continue on with your obviously dreary everyday lives (since you felt the need to email my blurbs about the problems I was having with my roomates to enough people but it's okay, my blog is in public space and I understand that, I still just think you're pretty lame).

Now Playing: Roomates, Kanye West ft. Consequence

Thursday, June 29, 2006

...On Social Obligation

Well, many of you who know me know that one of my most long standing Facebook quotes is, "I don't have to do a damn thing but stay black and die!" It's Morgan Freeman from the movie, Lean on Me. While I love this quote, I've had to retire it because I don't truly agree with it. Not only do I have to stay "black" (for lack of a better description of my ethnicity) and die, but it is my personal obligation to give back and feed into youth what was imparted in me. "Community Service" is invaluable and a priceless experience, not only do the people being 'serviced' receive something but the people serving the community gain life long knowledge about the real issues that this world faces.
This past week I've been working with some of the most intelligent, driven, and wittiest young ladies I've ever met. I was a team leader for Equipo Azul al Encuentro de Chicas Latinas de Girl Scouts. At this 3 day latina youth leadership conference I was able to meet and be inspired by the young ladies I worked with. Most of them are first generation American citizens, if not immigrants themselves. While the girls at the conference already had some sense of leadership but could not see past high school. Latinas have the highest teen pregnancy rate and high school drop out rates as well. As the largest minority in America today, it's important that they become well adjusted citizens to help make a better America and it's our duty (college educated people ...of any color I suppose, though latinos and blacks should be the first in line to volunteer) to ensure this new generation of latinos see past the statistics.
While I was speaking to my two of my group members, Noemi and Elisa, about the opportunities and advantages for teens in the Girl Scouting program, I got embarassingly choked up inside about how important it is to give your time to those younger than you. I know this sounds corny, but I saw the inspiration in their eyes and how empowered they felt knowing que es la verdad "SI, SE PUEDE" ...yes, it can be done...whatever you want to can be done. Now, the girls who I thought I was helping, now have me hooked because they're really the cool kids. I've already emailed them all...friended them on MySpace and Facebook.
This is very extreme, but apart of me whats to leave everything behind when I graduate and give myself to the world's causes. Go to countries in the Carribean and Latin America and go and inspire, spread the word that you can truly do anything that you desire to do in this world.
Yes, I love fashion but I love people even more. Giving the gift of hope and inspiration is something that I truly feel convicted about and that's something that I'll be doing for my entire matter where I am.
There is so much I want to do in my life and in so little time.
1. Graduate from college
2. Globetrot
3. Have a successful career in the magazine industry
4. Own my own boutique by 30
5. Get married (also by 30)
6. Have children
7. Make a difference in the live of the world's teen girls, therefore save the world
Now Playing: That's how Strong My Love Is, Otis Redding

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Motherhood, Marriage, and the Racial Divide
(Warning: You Might Be Mad At My Findings and Futhermore My Conclusion)

I hate to harp on the same topics...but it's really getting rediculous.
I went to a majority white high school and I now go to a historically black college. My high school was conservative, my college is liberal. My high school was in a quiet suburb of Atlanta, my college is in the heart of hood in Washington, DC. I love my people and my heritage but I must say there is something that more white people seem to be doing right that blacks of all socioeconomic backgrounds are missing.
Having children out of wedlock.
This is getting really crazy. I truly believe it's a generational curse that we have not been able to break. Since this is such a touchy subject I'll use my own life as an example.
My mother...had her first child (my oldest brother) at 14 years old. Now that's extreme...of course she wasn't married. Then about 15 years later, she had me. Was she married? NO.
My oldest brother had his first son out of wedlock. Unfortunately the relationship didn't work out with the mother of his oldest son. He finally got married and has had two other children with his wife. His two younger children live in the ideal household, two loving parents, two car garage, and white picket fence. Just because of the circumstance his oldest son has never fully experienced this. Now his oldest son's mother has another baby by another man but failed to make it to down the aisle. It's important to know that eldest nephew's mother has Sickle Cell Anemia. So, there's a great chance that during one of her spells she could loose her life. If she my nephew supposed to be split with his new baby sister? be away from his father who loves and wants him to live with him? Do you see the problem this poses? Do you see how his mother had continued to instill this twisted order of how things are supposed to happen?
I have a cousin who is 23 named Shamira. Shamira is not in school...never was. She has 4 children; ages : 6, 4,3, and almost 1. I must give Shamira some credit because all of her children have the same father.
Though I know a young lady who is 22 also with 4 children but she had 3 different baby fathers. Come on that's a shame and scandal.
I also have multiple black friends and know multiple people who have gone off to college and gotten pregnant. All over the facebook I see pregnant pictures, baby showers, and deliveries.
On the other hand, my white associates have facebook albums of bridal showers, braidsmaids luncheons, weddings, and honeymoons. Anyone see anything wrong with this?
White women are having women are having babies. White girls are picking venues for their wedding reception, black girls are chasing child support checks. While white women are having bridal showers, black women are having baby showers. I'm not saying it's a white and black thing...but my findings are telling me that it just might be. We are repeating the mistakes of our parents.
I'm not saying that 20-22 are ideal ages to get married but I know for sure that those also are not ideal ages to have a child either, especially with a husband by your side to help guide your child's life in the way it should go. Babies are a blessing, but sometimes we're not mature nor ready to receive our blessing. It seems as if no one is really thinking of the children. Preparing for that "bundle of joy" is precious...the cute onsies, the adorable nursuries (if you can afford one), choosing the name (even though some could use just a bit more thought). Everyone loves babies...but babies grow up. They don't stay babies they turn into mischeivious toddlers, smart mouthed middle schoolers, rebellious teens.
I know a girl whose 20, her mother is 34, and her stepfather is 30. How is the man who you look to as a father figure going to be 10 years older than you? That's retarded!
I'm not saying all of these young mothers are bad mothers, for I believe they all really want the best for their offspring but really. I see pictures on facebook of 3 month old babies with Jordans on...does the mother have a degree? NO. A career (not a job, a career...there is a difference)? NO. Does the child have a savings account yet? I hope so....
What is it that our generation doesn't get? What is it that these white kids get? Most of the black people I know are well educated, went to excellent schools, live in prominent neighborhoods (so they're not ghetto by anymeans). They are equal socioeconomically to the white kids I know. Alot of us all went to the same private Christian school. Why do white men marry and black men run? We as young black adults have to make a change and stop the madness. We really need to think about what we are doing to our kids. My bestfriend's boyfriend said one day, "Yea, I want to have some kids and then get married." WTF?! Who says that? You'd be suprised but alot of men. A guy I used to date said to me, "Yea, I mean I want to get married about 30 but I'll probably have kids around 27, 28." NOOOOO, THAT'S NOT HOW ITS SUPPOSED TO GO!
It's just like Common says in his song Retrospect for Life, "too many black women can say that they mothers but can't say that they wives."
This is a serious matter, however I have been able to find some humor andwould like to share it with you:
1. Your baby's picture is on facebook
2. You have a facebook account but aren't in school anymore because you got pregnant
3. You bring your child to school and have them "kickin it" in hotspots around campus such as The Cafe, The Punchout, you got the baby stroller going across The Yard (my HU people know what I'm talking about)
4. Your friends can't come to your baby shower because they're all away at school
5. You use your refund check to buy diapers
6. You have to check your child into your dorm ("is this what we consider extended visitation?")
7. Your baby is in your wedding photos, or even apart of the wedding party (my parent's are guilty of this atroscity)
8. You take your child to Perfect Shots (or any other mall photographer) for pictures
(there is no reason your baby should child should have champaign flutes in the background of their photo!)
9. Your 6 year old can't read
10. A family takes care of your child(ren) because you can't afford day care

Okay...these are just some things to think about. Like I said before all children are blessings and it's great for people to handle their responsibilities. Let's start using self-control in addition to birth control.

Now Playing: Sadie, R. Kelly

Editor's Note: All pictures were on Facebook, therefore public property..I blurred out the identities of those who may not be displayed in the most positive light. But then again, all this is the reality of what I see.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

My Theory On Why Fighting in the Club Increases Your Star Power
(and other randyme happenings and conversations while on aim)

It's never happened before
and I wouldn't mind if it never happened again.
I caused a fight in the club.
Technically I threw the first punch...but I sure as hell didn't throw the last one. My main man's best friend did.
Now before you judge, and write me off as hood or ghettoesque- listen to what happened.
We were out at the club looking fly, drinking from the bar, and generally having a GREAT time. I believe Wale's new song, "Dig Dug", was playing. If you're not familiar with's basically a guy rapping over go-go. It's hot! Anyway I was facing my main man dancing and enjoying the presence of the people I was with when all of a sudden a guy walks up behind me and GRABS MY ASS!
I went straight "ATL." I turned around and slapped him a la Alicia from The Wood and then punched him. "You do not know me" I exclaimed, "Keep your F_cking hands off!"
I guess the punch didnt hurt much because he then proceeded to come in my face and say "it wasn't all that."
So I guess at this point my main and his friend realized there was an issue and all I remember is my main pushing him back and his friend Eric throwing the first bow which immediately knocked the wack ass wannabe suitor to the floor. Before I knew it, the side section of the club had turned into an amateur episode WWF. Bodies were being picked up, punches were swung...and I guess I had caused it all. I thought my miniature one-two knockout had been enough to keep him moving along...but I guess the men in my party had other plans.
The funny thing is...we were the dopest people at the club that night. We were the VIP without even needing a room. Were we on stage poppin' bottles of Moe? Nope...Did we sit in lounge chairs all night and make kissy faces at each other? Hell Nope. (lol) Anywhere we stepped became the VIP area, we were seriously turning heads. Which leads me to believe that we were destined to fight that night. Almost every celebrity that really knows how to party hard has had a fight in the club. Just think...Sean "P.Diddy" Combs, Paris Hilton (that bitch throws down), Camron (along with a host of other rappers), HBO's Series The Entourage star, Jeremy Piven just had a fight (which was probably induced by his PR people who knew that fighting in the club would make him a more noteworthy up and coming celeb), and the not so teen queen, Lindsay Lohan! See...everyone's doing it! Which thereinfore (not sure if this is truly a word but it sounds so scholastic) means we must be about to BLOW UP big time. So as opposed to feeling bad about causing a rauwkus in the club...I'm going to take the experience as one of the first steps to making it big.

And in other news....Randymethougths on the relationship students at HU have with Meridian Hill and seeking inspirational messages and struggling with my blog plus more:
shine0485 (12:12:17 AM): no work on mondays...this is staying up late to me
shine0485 (12:12:18 AM): lol
RanDYMEthoughts (12:12:23 AM): hahahhaa
shine0485 (12:12:23 AM): i'm so ashamed
RanDYMEthoughts (12:12:33 AM): esp. compared to your old meridian days
RanDYMEthoughts (12:12:35 AM): i can see now
RanDYMEthoughts (12:12:40 AM): i'm goin to miss meridian
shine0485 (12:12:47 AM): hell yea....i am too
shine0485 (12:12:53 AM): but i couldn't do that mess with that again tho

RanDYMEthoughts (12:13:20 AM): i think you have to enjoy it while its there
RanDYMEthoughts (12:13:22 AM): and move on
shine0485 (12:14:17 AM): yep. it's a one time thing. it's like a one night stand or somethin
shine0485 (12:14:29 AM): can't make it a relationship
RanDYMEthoughts (12:14:35 AM): though some do
RanDYMEthoughts (12:14:42 AM): but you can't turn a hoe into a housewife
shine0485 (12:14:54 AM): hahaha....some guys try...
RanDYMEthoughts (12:15:06 AM): yes they do
RanDYMEthoughts (12:15:20 AM): but it's never quite the same the second time around...i'm certain
....time passes.....
RanDYMEthoughts (12:21:57 AM): so...
RanDYMEthoughts (12:22:00 AM): inspire me
shine0485 (12:23:32 AM): i can't handle the pressure!!!
shine0485 (12:23:39 AM): umm...
shine0485 (12:23:46 AM): so i've been thinking...
RanDYMEthoughts (12:24:22 AM): that's always a start

shine0485 (12:26:00 AM): that the whole idea about situations or people only having the amount of importance that you give it is completely true
shine0485 (12:26:36 AM): or...them* i should say
RanDYMEthoughts (12:27:13 AM): i think so too
RanDYMEthoughts (12:27:14 AM): explain
shine0485 (12:29:49 AM): well after going through situations with guys, friends, family and just random shit i've found that i have had to repeat a saying over and over to myself.."mind over matter. if you don't mind it don;t matter"
shine0485 (12:29:50 AM): yep.
RanDYMEthoughts (12:30:09 AM): damn
RanDYMEthoughts (12:30:11 AM): that's hot
RanDYMEthoughts (12:30:17 AM): FACEBOOK!
shine0485 (12:30:44 AM): and that shit alleviates a lot of stress. and it makes u feel dumb about caring som much about little things that REALLY DONT MATTER
shine0485 (12:31:08 AM): i dont know where i got that saying from...but i know i didnt make it up myself
RanDYMEthoughts (12:32:24 AM): well i'll attribute it to you for now
RanDYMEthoughts (12:32:42 AM): -Ayanna by way of some wiser source
...time passes some more...
RanDYMEthoughts (12:33:52 AM): i've started w/ telling my story
RanDYMEthoughts (12:33:59 AM): but i kinda like telling the current event
RanDYMEthoughts (12:34:04 AM): and then applying it to me
RanDYMEthoughts (12:34:13 AM): but i'm not sure what to do w/ this one
shine0485 (12:35:11 AM): u've got me wanting to start a blog. not sure if i could commit tho. you make it seem very interesting tho
RanDYMEthoughts (12:36:40 AM): oh the concept of writing it
RanDYMEthoughts (12:36:43 AM): or reading ti
RanDYMEthoughts (12:36:44 AM): it*
shine0485 (12:36:51 AM): both
RanDYMEthoughts (12:37:34 AM): oh
RanDYMEthoughts (12:37:42 AM): writing it is fun and theraputic
RanDYMEthoughts (12:37:54 AM): but you always wonder if you have readers
RanDYMEthoughts (12:37:59 AM): because no one comments
RanDYMEthoughts (12:38:07 AM): its just kinda like having a movie out
RanDYMEthoughts (12:38:16 AM): and ppl coming to see it
RanDYMEthoughts (12:38:25 AM): but no one is buying a ticket
RanDYMEthoughts (12:38:29 AM): so you dont think anyone's there
RanDYMEthoughts (12:38:34 AM): but really everyone loves it
RanDYMEthoughts (12:38:38 AM): but you never know
RanDYMEthoughts (12:38:42 AM): because no one ever said it

shine0485 (12:38:45 AM): hahaha
shine0485 (12:38:52 AM): this is very very true
shine0485 (12:38:54 AM): well put

I thought this was the end of the entry. But I had yet another randyme occurance while on aim

RanDYMEthoughts (1:32:36 AM): OMG
RanDYMEthoughts (1:32:47 AM): i just had a"my roomate commited suicide "scare
shine0485 (1:36:56 AM): omg what happened?
RanDYMEthoughts (1:37:46 AM): she's drunk as shit
RanDYMEthoughts (1:37:55 AM): and someone was tapping at the door
RanDYMEthoughts (1:38:02 AM): she had closed herself in the bathroom
RanDYMEthoughts (1:38:06 AM): threw up in the sink
RanDYMEthoughts (1:38:14 AM): and was passed out on the floor
shine0485 (1:38:20 AM): omg!
shine0485 (1:38:33 AM): who IS this girl??
RanDYMEthoughts (1:38:38 AM): i thought the throw up was blood
RanDYMEthoughts (1:38:50 AM): i was like FUCK THIS BITCH DONE KILLED HERSELF

CKBear411 (1:39:44 AM): oh my gosh
CKBear411 (1:40:00 AM): that is horrible
CKBear411 (1:40:01 AM): is she ok
CKBear411 (1:40:06 AM): did she go to the hospital
RanDYMEthoughts (1:40:10 AM): well, she's not dead
CKBear411 (1:40:14 AM): thats good
RanDYMEthoughts (1:40:19 AM): she's str8 just EXTREMELY drunk
CKBear411 (1:41:38 AM): oh gosh
CKBear411 (1:43:47 AM): were u the first to find her like htat
RanDYMEthoughts (1:44:14 AM): it was me and another girl
RanDYMEthoughts (1:44:17 AM): her friend
CKBear411 (1:44:38 AM): thats really not good
RanDYMEthoughts (1:46:21 AM): i was scared
RanDYMEthoughts (1:46:28 AM): and she threw up in the sink
CKBear411 (1:46:31 AM): that is scary
CKBear411 (1:46:33 AM): ewwww
RanDYMEthoughts (1:46:36 AM): im thinking she had curried chicken and shrimp
CKBear411 (1:47:31 AM): ewww
CKBear411 (1:47:34 AM): that is grosss!

CKBear411 (1:47:44 AM): who is going to clean that up
RanDYMEthoughts (1:48:19 AM): Maintenence
CKBear411 (1:48:30 AM): oh ok
CKBear411 (1:48:37 AM): that is really disgusting

Now Playing: Crazy- Gnarls Barkley

(in case you dont' get the pic of the guy in the audience..he's the bama i feel like I'm talking to, so if you read and appreciate my writing - drop me a line sometime)

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Randymethoughts on The ALMA Awards and Poorly Matched Roomates

So, I finally got rid of the predator (or so I believe) by simply blocking that ass on AIM. I don't know why I didn't think of that before.

Okay, on to The American Latino Media Arts Awards (ALMA) put on by The National Council of La Raza on ABC yesterday evening. The NCLR ALMA Awards honors outstanding Latino artistic achievement in television, film, and music and the enhancement of the Latino image in the entertainment industry.
First did anyone else watch the awards? They were pretty good and filled with lots of Latino Star Power.
It was very interesting how Jessica Simpson felt the need to go 5 shades darker just to "blend better" with the "hispanohablantes." Ms. Goldilocks looked more like a strawberry red head last night. I'm happy it went unnoticed to at least one person since ALMA Award Winner, Julia Reyes commented on the singer's orange palmming.
I also noticed that during the time block of the awards there were commericials totalamente en espanol. I felt as though I was watching Telemundo! Though I'm happy, they didn't go the stereotypical Mexican based, novelas, Sabado Gigante...Telemundo route. We need to see more hispanics on mainstream media. And you know how I feel about middle America. They need to be exposed to more than just white washed Wonder Bread award shows. The ALMA Awards is dedicated to celebrating the accomplishments of Latinos in media and did just that. I was also happy to see more hispanics on the commericals...I just wish they would do that more.
Why not show the diversity that America is today everyday? Shoot, all Blacks are getting on a regular basis on those darn Koolaide commercial which futher feeds into the Koolaide and cornbread stereotype that we already have. All they need is to be eating some watermelon and chicken and it'll be modern day coonery all over again.
By the way, where the Asians at? When are their award shoes to celebrate ANY of their accomplishments in America? If I was Asian, I'd be pissed. They are such a diverse people just like hispanics and like blacks as well, yet still have little to no media representation. Besides a few kung fu movies disguised by new names like Mulan (who is indeed fictional) they haven't been represented as more than today's version of ninja's (Jackie Chan), nerdy smart kids (that guy off of Sixteen Candles), or artsy prostitutes (Memoirs of a Geisha..which I loved by the way). It's just like when blacks were only given mamie roles or parts as servants. The same thing, different time, different people. Same shit, different toilet.

Okay, so room 812W is not working for me. She eats pork and loooooooves month old freezer burned finds ...anyone who knows me knows I depise the swine , I think it contaminates your body and my food (which why i have none in there), and I not so secretly threw most of the food in the freezer as I thought there might be maggots beginning to form. She plays a rowdy game of spoons or taboo with half of the known world at 2 am and the next wall over I'm having an intimate conversation with one friend, on the phone with my boo, or writing in my diary or my blog. She keeps her toothbrush and shower sponge for what looks like 3, well i keep mine for 3 months (I hear it's doctor recommended). All I can say is, I can't wait for Claire to come back to DC and save me.

Now Playing: Virgo- Nas

Sunday, June 04, 2006

About Online Sexual Predators

These pervs have been on every news or talk stations...ABC 7, Oprah, Dateline...They're hitting it big time. From live arrest where Diane Sawyer knocks down the door to find the freaks jacking off at their computer desks to mailmen who are supposed sexual predators gone good, sexual predators have definitely had their 15 minutes of fame. I think the phenomenon has gone too far.
I have an online predator. No, seriously...and it's getting out of hand. I don't really even know why they're targeting me. Aren't I about 7 years too old to be sexually preyed on? I'm a grown ass woman- why is would someone chose me to IM and say crude things too. I'd like to believe my AIM screename is private...only friends can view it on's not on MySpace.
I know its someone I know...he claims he goes to Howard with me and says his name is Mark. Clearly those thing are probably not true. Even if he does go to Howard I know his name isn't Mark, not his first name anyway. I'm almost positive the screen name he's been using is an alternate. It's completely too vulgur for it to be his main name.
I'm thoroughly disgusted and annoyed. It's funny, I'm not even afriad- just very disturbed and grossed out that someone would think to say some of the things he's decided to say to me.
I don't even dress provactively...I don't have any sort of reputation...and I don't talk about sexual matters with just anyone. Why me?
Where does this guy get off? (no pun intended)

Now Playing: Call the Cops, Mario